My dog was attacked :(

 My dog was attacked today by another dog :(

Today I was taking our morning walk and I had decided to up our distance and go farther then we usually go. We have been walking one mile I wanted to up it to 1.5. From where I live there is really only one direction to walk and we go straight down the road, turn around and go home.

Well we were walking along and a woman turned down behind us with a big dog. Idk what it was it looked like a yellow lab mixed with a bear it was huge. We were about a half a block ahead of them, no worries.

Then we got to the end of where I wanted to walk. I was exhausted by then and didn't want to keep going so I turned around and realized they were behind us so it was kindof awkward. I didn't think much of it, I've seen other dogs before. I pulled Trixie & myself to the very edge of the curb and waited for them to pass, leaving plenty of space. I smiled at her and apologized as her dog was pulling towards us. But he didn't seem aggressive to me just interested. I still kept us away.

But the woman wasn't very big and he pulls free from her and just jumps on Trixie. It happened so fast. He was just nipping at her butt. He didn't break the skin. But it was nothing but lunge and bite bite bite. She yelped and tried jumping/running.

She got her dog and I grabbed Trixie away and picked her up to check if she was ok. She was fine, no skin was broken.

The woman just said sorry and left. She didn't even stop to see if my dog was ok.

As soon as I saw Trixie was ok I lost it. I had to sit down on the ground crying, shaking, I couldn't breathe. Panic attack! So not the best reaction. Trixie went right into comfort mode, the angel lol.

She is so so tiny and it could have been so bad. I am just a wreck. I am scared if it mentally hurt her worse then it did physically. We still had to walk all the way home and for the entire way until we were back on our normal route she kept being jumpy and checking behind her.

I know I didn't handle it right. I did make her walk home though I so wanted to carry her and just protect her in my bubble of love. And I kept talking happy and telling her she was a good girl. I didn't want the experience to scar her so that she would be afraid of dogs.

I never thought about what I would do if she was attacked, that was never supposed to happen. I feel horrible about it. I should have pulled down the side street and backtracked instead of just walking to the side. And its all my fault we were down there to begin with, I should have stuck to our normal route and it wouldn't have happened.

She seems fine right now, like nothing happened.


A really strange part was that this morning when I started walking I so didn't feel like it. My legs were sore before I started. Every step I had to push myself forward. I kept saying oh I will turn around and cut it short but then I kept walking. The only reason I kept on was that it was pretty dead outside being Sunday morning & I didn't want to pass up that chance.

Also my BS numbers suck. My FBS was 145 & then three hours after breakfast + the walk I was up to 168. My breakfast only had 38 carbs. I had alot of anxiety but still, three hours & the walk I would imagine it wouldn't be so high.

I hope the rest of the day gets better. I am busy cleaning cleaning cleaning.

Yay for dogs!

I woke up at 5am this morning. I wasn't feeling very good. Had a small binge last night meh. My routine gets messed up and I do things like that. :( I'm disappointed in myself. But all I can do is take it one day at a time. Today will be a better brighter day.

I took a walk this morning. It was just a mile but it was nice. Just a slight chill this morning but lovely out. Still working on the leash walking with my dog Trixie. Having to stop and correct her again and again makes the walk slower, but I am still moving. She does pretty well honestly. She will stop and sit if I stop almost always now, I can call her back to a heal position. She just gets excited and starts pulling. Honestly I just walk too slow for her lol! It makes me feel bad.

I think I may take my walk farther and work on 1.5 miles starting tomorrow, then keep increasing it as the weeks go on.

I do have one really bright point to share. During my walk I started having a panic attack. My legs were getting alittle bit sore, up hill walking meh. I always start to panic right about that point. And it really sucks because I feel like I can't catch my breath, that I can't breathe, my chest tightens. And trying to walk and feel like that makes the walk 300% harder.

But this time I actually used my dog to help me. I knelt down and told her the command and she nuzzled me with her head. It let me catch my breath, relax and calm down. The rest of the walk was much better.

So I am thankful for that.

I am dropping my foster kittens off today with the rescue so they can go to the vet and have some promising homes look at them! I hope they get adopted. They are amazing little kittens, so deserving of great homes. 

I made chicken fajitas for dinner. I have never tried cooking something like that before and am really proud of myself. It turned out great. I cut up all the peppers & onions. My DH teased me at how I was making cutting a pepper far too complicated and he showed me how to cut it the right way :) I then cut up chicken and seasoned it with garlic & mesquite spices. My sister in law had explained how to do it & that I needed a very hot pan and I think that helped the most. They were really yummy. Had them with just alittle bit of cheese and whole wheat tortillas.

 I am also really proud of myself because I have been drinking lots of water now. I need to buy another water bottle and I also need to get some hand weights really bad.

Tomorrow is my weigh in day. I hope it goes as well as I am hoping it does!

Happy Memorial Day!

Today I am the mostest (yep mostest) proudest of myself ever!! Me, crazy super anxiety girl, not only went and met complete strangers, outside, by myself (well with Trixie), but I also walked in the parade. Yes tons of people all staring at me & taking pics/videos. I was a rock star.

It was so scary honestly, I had alot of almost chicken out moments. But I did it and I am happy & proud of myself. I even got a super sweet text from my DH saying how proud he was of me. ❤

A local groomer I was interested in was seeking more people to walk in the parade to represent them. I agreed to go. It wasn't a great workout, though moving at all is better then sitting on the couch! Under a mile and was very slow.

Trixie had a blast. As soon as we arrived she got so excited to see all the other dogs & people. But she got shy when we got over to everyone and hid behind me a few times. She was well behaved though. And met each dog. She was a huge fan of a sweet tempered girl named Pepper.

One of the best parts was getting to see a pony and they let me pet it! So soft!

It was alot of fun & I am very glad I did it.

Anyways... going shopping tonight. I have a great plan & shopping list.

I am feeling so amazing right now!