Well today was my weigh in. I was sure that I gained. I was praying that I was the same weight and hadn't gained atleast. But this morning when I stepped on the scale....I was down 1.8lbs! I reweighed myself like 5 times to make sure it wasn't some fluke lol
So yay me! 215.4 On my way to Onderland baby!
When I woke up this morning I decided to go for my morning walk. It wasn't too chilly out but it was lightly raining. But the next two days are supposed to be very cold in the low teens or single digits. So I didn't want to waste the nice day not walking just cuz of a little rain.
Then when I got home I rested for a bit, checked facebook and such lol. Then I got busy cleaning my room. It was alot of work. I rearranged things, organized and cleaned. I now have a lovely spot to workout and do yoga.
After that I brought in the Wii and the dvd player which was a pain to unhook from the living room tv. And I got the dvd working but not the Wii. I have zero ideas why it isn't working. I feel like I need to be a rocket scientist to figure out how to hook stuff up. Everything is plugged in where it should be but it is just not working idk. Which means I have to wait until my DH's day off Wednesday, then bug him until he fixes it for me.
But since the dvd player was working I did Walk Away the Pounds Dvd, 1 mile. After dinner I am going to do another mile and some yoga.
So from now on when the weather isn't being lovely I will do the dvd and/or Wii.
After my workout I took the rats out to play in the newly cleaned bedroom. Khaleesi enjoyed it. She ran all around exploring. Her daughters decided to just hide and/or sit on me. But Ill let them out daily now that the room is picked up and they will get used to it.
Besides that I had some horrible nightmares last night which took awhile for me to shake off. I ate really good today and drank lots of water.
I am determined to make it through the week with no regrets. Wish me luck!
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Sunday, January 4, 2015
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Blizzard + New Years
Well my post yesterday about winter couldn't have come at a better time. Today we got hit by a blizzard, lake effect snow and icy & cold. Not fun walking weather. When I woke up I planned to use the Wii but my legs were ultra sore. I decided it is best to listen to my body and take a rest day. No point in pushing myself and getting hurt. Hopefully tomorrow I will feel better.
I ate horrible today. No binges but I ate alot of not healthy foods and alot of them.I partly blame it on my DH being home. It isn't his fault, all mine. But for some reason it is so much harder for me to stay on track when he is around. Must figure out why.
I got a book/video combo at the store yesterday for yoga. It was on sale half off. I couldn't resist. The book goes through all the poses and has pictures so it is easy to follow. I will start adding yoga back into my routine. I just need to make myself a spot where I can do it in.
I can't believe it is almost a new year. I am a bit sad that I didn't do things sooner. I could have been where I wanted to be at already if I had. But I can't change the past. So there is nothing left to do other then look forward.
I am copying Sparkpeople's Goal setting guide.
Step 2: Make your goal detailed and SPECIFIC.
By April 1st 2015 I want to be under 200lbs.
I will know I've reached my goal when:
I am under 200lbs
I ate horrible today. No binges but I ate alot of not healthy foods and alot of them.I partly blame it on my DH being home. It isn't his fault, all mine. But for some reason it is so much harder for me to stay on track when he is around. Must figure out why.
I got a book/video combo at the store yesterday for yoga. It was on sale half off. I couldn't resist. The book goes through all the poses and has pictures so it is easy to follow. I will start adding yoga back into my routine. I just need to make myself a spot where I can do it in.
I can't believe it is almost a new year. I am a bit sad that I didn't do things sooner. I could have been where I wanted to be at already if I had. But I can't change the past. So there is nothing left to do other then look forward.
I am copying Sparkpeople's Goal setting guide.
Step 1: Write down your goal in as few words as possible.
My goal is to: Hit OnderlandStep 2: Make your goal detailed and SPECIFIC.
By April 1st 2015 I want to be under 200lbs.
HOW will you reach this goal? List at least 3 action steps you'll take (be specific):
1. Track my Calories daily.
2. Exercise atleast 5 days a week.
3. Eat more fruits and veggies
4. Watch my carbs.
Step 3: Make your goal is MEASUREABLE.
Add details, measurements and tracking details.
I will measure/track my goal by using the following numbers or methods:
I will weigh in every Sunday.
I will know I've reached my goal when:
I am under 200lbs
Step 4: Make your goal ATTAINABLE.
What additional resources do you need for success?
Items I need to achieve this goal: I am using Sparkpeople.com to track my calories and fitbit to track my exercise.
People I can talk to for support: my sister, sparkfriends, and 3fatchicks.com for support.
Step 5: Make your goal RELEVANT.
List why you want to reach this goal:
I want to be healthy and happier. In better shape. And closer to my ultimate weight goal.
Step 6: Make your goal TIMELY.
Put a deadline on your goal and set some benchmarks.
I will reach my goal by (date): 04/01/2015
My halfway measurement will be 210lbs by 02/01/2015
Monday, December 15, 2014
Feeling positive!
Having a much better day today! Yay me. I was able to walk down to the pharmacy and use the discount card so I only had to pay $15 for my medication! So that made me happy.
I haven't napped in 3 days. It hasn't been easy. I think boredom is part of the problem. I need to summon the energy to get things done so I can keep myself busy during the day. I'd walk more but it is so muddy and slushy outside & somedays have been very chilly, it isn't very appetizing. But that partially feels like an excuse and I should just do it anyways.
I did walk today to the pharmacy so thats good. I might take another walk now, I haven't decided yet.
Food wise...things have been much much better then my norm. But not great overall. I am not eating healthy just eating less. And I know its about small steps. I can't go for perfection or I will fail everytime. But I do know I need to do better and I am tracking my food and seeing where I can improve.
For instance my breakfast of choice is this cinnamon oatmeal granola, which is to die for. I think making it with almond milk instead of milk would help cut carbs and add protein. I may also throw some almonds in it to bring up the protein and fat. Making it a more balanced breakfast.
I am thinking sandwich and salad for lunches. Probably a grilled cheese using low fat cheese, turkey slices and whole wheat bread. The first time I ever lost alot of weight grilled cheese was my go to meal. It was warm and gooey a balanced choice and kept me full. Some cottage cheese and veggies or salad on the side its delicious and easy to make.
And then for dinner experiment some with different dishes. Probably mix in eggs some nights for a cheap healthy meal, pack them with veggies. The other nights make chicken and do something with it. Finding some good ideas on pinterest. The only good thing about my husband working closes, is that he won't be home for dinner so I can just cook for myself and not worry about having to make something for him too, and then being naughty and eating bad myself.
Ofcourse the bad side is that with my current sleeping schedule I never see him. I am asleep when he gets home and still sleeping when he leaves in the morning. I have got to fix my sleeping. I am no longer napping but instead I am sleeping in really late. It is kindof like a trade off lol.
I want to start setting my alarm and getting up earlier but I am waiting until I have the nap situation worked out better. I am sleeping really well at night. Less tossing and turning, if I wake up I fall back to sleep fairly easily. I feel rested when I get up.
Oh I also had my weigh in yesterday and am down to 220 from 222.4lbs. So yay! I still admit that I am feeling slightly upset that I regained so much. I had been down to 207...so close to Onederland and to gain it back sucks and be just so far away again. But I am not letting it get me down. I will do it and this time no more regaining, no more stopping, no more giving up, no more excuses. I can do this.
Anyways I have a plan of action, so thats good :) I am feeling very determined & positive which is great.
I haven't napped in 3 days. It hasn't been easy. I think boredom is part of the problem. I need to summon the energy to get things done so I can keep myself busy during the day. I'd walk more but it is so muddy and slushy outside & somedays have been very chilly, it isn't very appetizing. But that partially feels like an excuse and I should just do it anyways.
I did walk today to the pharmacy so thats good. I might take another walk now, I haven't decided yet.
Food wise...things have been much much better then my norm. But not great overall. I am not eating healthy just eating less. And I know its about small steps. I can't go for perfection or I will fail everytime. But I do know I need to do better and I am tracking my food and seeing where I can improve.
For instance my breakfast of choice is this cinnamon oatmeal granola, which is to die for. I think making it with almond milk instead of milk would help cut carbs and add protein. I may also throw some almonds in it to bring up the protein and fat. Making it a more balanced breakfast.
I am thinking sandwich and salad for lunches. Probably a grilled cheese using low fat cheese, turkey slices and whole wheat bread. The first time I ever lost alot of weight grilled cheese was my go to meal. It was warm and gooey a balanced choice and kept me full. Some cottage cheese and veggies or salad on the side its delicious and easy to make.
And then for dinner experiment some with different dishes. Probably mix in eggs some nights for a cheap healthy meal, pack them with veggies. The other nights make chicken and do something with it. Finding some good ideas on pinterest. The only good thing about my husband working closes, is that he won't be home for dinner so I can just cook for myself and not worry about having to make something for him too, and then being naughty and eating bad myself.
Ofcourse the bad side is that with my current sleeping schedule I never see him. I am asleep when he gets home and still sleeping when he leaves in the morning. I have got to fix my sleeping. I am no longer napping but instead I am sleeping in really late. It is kindof like a trade off lol.
I want to start setting my alarm and getting up earlier but I am waiting until I have the nap situation worked out better. I am sleeping really well at night. Less tossing and turning, if I wake up I fall back to sleep fairly easily. I feel rested when I get up.
Oh I also had my weigh in yesterday and am down to 220 from 222.4lbs. So yay! I still admit that I am feeling slightly upset that I regained so much. I had been down to 207...so close to Onederland and to gain it back sucks and be just so far away again. But I am not letting it get me down. I will do it and this time no more regaining, no more stopping, no more giving up, no more excuses. I can do this.
Anyways I have a plan of action, so thats good :) I am feeling very determined & positive which is great.
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Weigh In Disappointment
Today was my weigh in day... I am back up to 210 lbs. I swore I would never see 210 again and there it was staring right up at me with all its evilness.
All I can say is that I am disappointed in myself, angry, upset, feeling quite down. I have no one else to blame but myself. My actions brought me to this point.
I feel like my weight is an echo of my emotions. My therapist said being bipolar, I am ruled by my emotions. Whatever emotion I am feeling in that moment is in the driver's seat, making the decisions. I have to end that cycle, be more in control. But it isn't easy. And it would be easy to dismiss all my problems on my mental issues. I see my doctor in two weeks and will ask her to up my pills for sure. But there isn't going to be a magic pill that makes everything perfect. It will help me manage it not make life kittens and rainbows.
I watch the show Extreme Weightloss alot. I love it. I know its reality tv and edited and the people get to go to a resort for 3 months with nutritionists and personal trainers. So its so not like real life at all. But I watch the people try so hard. They know what they want and they push themselves toward it.
I am just not really trying. I half a$$ it. Put barely enough effort into it. And yet I expect to see these huge changes. I order pizza two nights a week and eat the entire thing + bread. Hello way over my calories not to mention...I am diabetic. Those carbs are so not what I should be stuffing my face with. I made brownies and ate 1/4 of the pan as a serving. I ate almost an entire box of mac & cheese with over 1/4 bag of breaded chicken strips. Do you see any veggies in there?
I see so many carbs and calories and NOT a girl who is caring about her health and weight at all.
I just wanna cry right now. I wanna slap myself and scream that I need to wake up and do this right. And I am scared that I will sit here and say a bunch of happy motivational crap and then tomorrow eat like crap again.
How do these other people do it? Where do the summon the strength from? How do they resist temptations? How do they not let their bad day ruin everything?
I have to change for real. I need a routine. Structure. I need to not buy crap that I don't trust myself around. No more fast food. I need to up my exercise and actually push myself. I need to not give up. No more hoping. I need to do. But even as I write these words I fear that tomorrow they will go poof and I will once again be picking myself back up sigh.
All I can say is that I am disappointed in myself, angry, upset, feeling quite down. I have no one else to blame but myself. My actions brought me to this point.
I feel like my weight is an echo of my emotions. My therapist said being bipolar, I am ruled by my emotions. Whatever emotion I am feeling in that moment is in the driver's seat, making the decisions. I have to end that cycle, be more in control. But it isn't easy. And it would be easy to dismiss all my problems on my mental issues. I see my doctor in two weeks and will ask her to up my pills for sure. But there isn't going to be a magic pill that makes everything perfect. It will help me manage it not make life kittens and rainbows.
I watch the show Extreme Weightloss alot. I love it. I know its reality tv and edited and the people get to go to a resort for 3 months with nutritionists and personal trainers. So its so not like real life at all. But I watch the people try so hard. They know what they want and they push themselves toward it.
I am just not really trying. I half a$$ it. Put barely enough effort into it. And yet I expect to see these huge changes. I order pizza two nights a week and eat the entire thing + bread. Hello way over my calories not to mention...I am diabetic. Those carbs are so not what I should be stuffing my face with. I made brownies and ate 1/4 of the pan as a serving. I ate almost an entire box of mac & cheese with over 1/4 bag of breaded chicken strips. Do you see any veggies in there?
I see so many carbs and calories and NOT a girl who is caring about her health and weight at all.
I just wanna cry right now. I wanna slap myself and scream that I need to wake up and do this right. And I am scared that I will sit here and say a bunch of happy motivational crap and then tomorrow eat like crap again.
How do these other people do it? Where do the summon the strength from? How do they resist temptations? How do they not let their bad day ruin everything?
I have to change for real. I need a routine. Structure. I need to not buy crap that I don't trust myself around. No more fast food. I need to up my exercise and actually push myself. I need to not give up. No more hoping. I need to do. But even as I write these words I fear that tomorrow they will go poof and I will once again be picking myself back up sigh.
Monday, August 4, 2014
Weigh in!
My weigh in is usually Sunday but I totally forgot to weigh in yesterday so I did this morning instead. I was up to 211 during the week but this morning I was down to 208.2! Which is up from the 207.6 I was last week but I am under 210 so I am happy. I am guessing my period and not eating great caused the gain. But next week I will get back down.
I am so exhausted right now. I just wanna take a nap but I am struggling not to. I think not napping helped me sleep better but its really hard not to. I actually slept pretty good last night. I woke up afew times but managed to fall back to sleep without too much of a fight.
I rode my bike this morning again. I am working on not stopping at all and its hard but I am getting better. I also took a short walk to get cat litter from the store nearby. It was a super short walk almost across the street but carrying the 14lb container of cat litter home was prob a nice workout lol
Besides that my day is pretty good though boring. I am eating pretty good. I have the bored munchies. But resisting pretty well.
I am so exhausted right now. I just wanna take a nap but I am struggling not to. I think not napping helped me sleep better but its really hard not to. I actually slept pretty good last night. I woke up afew times but managed to fall back to sleep without too much of a fight.
I rode my bike this morning again. I am working on not stopping at all and its hard but I am getting better. I also took a short walk to get cat litter from the store nearby. It was a super short walk almost across the street but carrying the 14lb container of cat litter home was prob a nice workout lol
Besides that my day is pretty good though boring. I am eating pretty good. I have the bored munchies. But resisting pretty well.
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Today is looking bright - weigh in!
I am continuing to wake up early in the morning. Before it was 4am everyday and now it started being 3am. Guess how much fun that is? The worst is that after I wake up I can not for the life of me fall back to sleep. I am laying in bed tossing and turning until 5-6am before I finally get up or fall back to sleep. It is seriously putting a edge to my day.
Tonight I am going to not drink anything after 7pm and see if that helps me stay asleep.
Besides that my day has started off amazingly great!
FBS this morning 115 and that was after eating a bowl of granola/oatmeal kindof late. It was really good quality stuff with cinnamon, flax, quinoa. So that all probably helped control my BS. I really love oatmeal and granola so that makes me happy.
Secondly today is my weigh in. And I haven't been having the best week. I had alot of ups and downs and wanted to quit..but I didn't! So I wasn't expecting anything big on the scale today. But I am down 2.6lbs!!!! 207.6 is my weight today. I jumped on the scale 3 times to make sure because I didnt believe it lol
So here is to not giving up! Yay me!
One step closer to Onederland...8.6lbs to go baby!
I am hoping the rain lets up today so I can get in a walk. I have to run to the pet store by my house to get cat food but it is like right across the street lol Though still carrying a huge bag of cat food home is some strength workout in itself lol!
Yesterday I had a mostly boring day though I did take my oldest cat Kisa to the vet to get her updated rabies and microchipped. She was so well behaved and calm the vet commented on her being the best cat she has ever seen and a real treasure to get to meet. awww :) Made me so proud. She is the sweetest cat. She loves everyone. Though she hates the foster kittens and Trixie lol My other cats would not have been that well behaved at all lol
Tonight I am going to not drink anything after 7pm and see if that helps me stay asleep.
Besides that my day has started off amazingly great!
FBS this morning 115 and that was after eating a bowl of granola/oatmeal kindof late. It was really good quality stuff with cinnamon, flax, quinoa. So that all probably helped control my BS. I really love oatmeal and granola so that makes me happy.
Secondly today is my weigh in. And I haven't been having the best week. I had alot of ups and downs and wanted to quit..but I didn't! So I wasn't expecting anything big on the scale today. But I am down 2.6lbs!!!! 207.6 is my weight today. I jumped on the scale 3 times to make sure because I didnt believe it lol
So here is to not giving up! Yay me!
One step closer to Onederland...8.6lbs to go baby!
I am hoping the rain lets up today so I can get in a walk. I have to run to the pet store by my house to get cat food but it is like right across the street lol Though still carrying a huge bag of cat food home is some strength workout in itself lol!
Yesterday I had a mostly boring day though I did take my oldest cat Kisa to the vet to get her updated rabies and microchipped. She was so well behaved and calm the vet commented on her being the best cat she has ever seen and a real treasure to get to meet. awww :) Made me so proud. She is the sweetest cat. She loves everyone. Though she hates the foster kittens and Trixie lol My other cats would not have been that well behaved at all lolSunday, July 13, 2014
20 lbs down kindof sortof
Today was my weigh in and I am at 210.2 down 1.2lbs from last week. Sucks because yesterday I weighed in at 209.something but meh today is my official weigh in day so be it. It may just mean a better number next week :)
Today's weigh in is kindof bittersweet. It puts me at 20 lbs lost since my starting weight...way way back in 2009. Since then I have lost and regained. My lowest being 189-185 somewhere around there. And being back up to 215 and 210 countless times.
But I am counting it as rehitting the 20lbs down mark. Perhaps I am retracing my steps. But I am losing. I am moving forward. I will never have to see that 20lbs down mark again. Its all forward from here out.
Right? Because with this comes a whole mix of fear! Last time 2009, I was first diagnosed with diabetes and pcos and I was a rockstar out of the gate just like now. I was taking my meds. I was working out, I was eating right. I was losing the weight and being amazing. And then I lost it all. One little wrench snowballed into a bunch of small things putting kinks and issues into my routine and I crumbled.
The difference now is that I am treating my bipolar and seeing a therapist. But that also means I am so much more going on. Will I snap under the pressure of it all?
I can't control everything. This time I am able to get to the doctor on my own riding the bus so I don't have to worry about dragging my DH everywhere and him being tired waiting around at my appointments. But money is always an issue. Even with insurance we still pay a pretty penny. One of my meds is fairly expensive. The others are not but when you are taking 5/6 pills a day they sure add up.
And I am not doing as well as I had hoped. It is a struggle to eat right. I had a binge the other day. Yesterday I ate too much. This isn't just physical it is mental and emotional and it sucks and is so damn difficult.
I think I could do perfect if life was simple and smooth. I have a routine I can plan. But when life starts throwing curve balls at me I am lost. I crumble. I just do not know how to take it and bounce back.
Idk today I am determined to have a good day. I am down in weight. I am happy. I am about to go take a walk. Hopefully I can do 2 miles again.
Today's weigh in is kindof bittersweet. It puts me at 20 lbs lost since my starting weight...way way back in 2009. Since then I have lost and regained. My lowest being 189-185 somewhere around there. And being back up to 215 and 210 countless times.
But I am counting it as rehitting the 20lbs down mark. Perhaps I am retracing my steps. But I am losing. I am moving forward. I will never have to see that 20lbs down mark again. Its all forward from here out.
Right? Because with this comes a whole mix of fear! Last time 2009, I was first diagnosed with diabetes and pcos and I was a rockstar out of the gate just like now. I was taking my meds. I was working out, I was eating right. I was losing the weight and being amazing. And then I lost it all. One little wrench snowballed into a bunch of small things putting kinks and issues into my routine and I crumbled.
The difference now is that I am treating my bipolar and seeing a therapist. But that also means I am so much more going on. Will I snap under the pressure of it all?
I can't control everything. This time I am able to get to the doctor on my own riding the bus so I don't have to worry about dragging my DH everywhere and him being tired waiting around at my appointments. But money is always an issue. Even with insurance we still pay a pretty penny. One of my meds is fairly expensive. The others are not but when you are taking 5/6 pills a day they sure add up.
And I am not doing as well as I had hoped. It is a struggle to eat right. I had a binge the other day. Yesterday I ate too much. This isn't just physical it is mental and emotional and it sucks and is so damn difficult.
I think I could do perfect if life was simple and smooth. I have a routine I can plan. But when life starts throwing curve balls at me I am lost. I crumble. I just do not know how to take it and bounce back.
Idk today I am determined to have a good day. I am down in weight. I am happy. I am about to go take a walk. Hopefully I can do 2 miles again.
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Weigh in! & Not drinking enough water
So good news I am down 1.6lbs this week yay me! By September I am hoping to be under 200lbs...ONEderland here I come! By my birthday (9-22) maybe...180? I can hope :)
Also my BS was quite a bit lower this morning at 152. Which is still high but compared to 270-214 it is a blessing lol. I am going to start testing at night this week, right before bed and see how it is changing while I sleep. Also this morning I tested as soon as I woke up instead of doing all my bathroom readiness, taking the dog out and feeding the cats first. I think this was alot better.
On the to be worked on side... I need to start drinking more. I gave up soda and now I am just not drinking anywhere near enough liquid. I have some tea and water. For example today I woke up at 6:30 am it is now 5pm & I have had like a cup & a half of stuff to drink. Thats it. perhaps that is why I am feeling bad.
I will fill up my water bottle tomorrow maybe that will help....
Also my BS was quite a bit lower this morning at 152. Which is still high but compared to 270-214 it is a blessing lol. I am going to start testing at night this week, right before bed and see how it is changing while I sleep. Also this morning I tested as soon as I woke up instead of doing all my bathroom readiness, taking the dog out and feeding the cats first. I think this was alot better.
On the to be worked on side... I need to start drinking more. I gave up soda and now I am just not drinking anywhere near enough liquid. I have some tea and water. For example today I woke up at 6:30 am it is now 5pm & I have had like a cup & a half of stuff to drink. Thats it. perhaps that is why I am feeling bad.
I will fill up my water bottle tomorrow maybe that will help....
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