A good day turned bad.

Today was the longest day ever. I am beyond exhausted & feel god awful horrible.

It started with me waking up at 5:30am...I went to bed later than I wanted so I didnt get much sleep. Then I had to get ready and get out the door by 7:30am. I went and worked at the spay clinic. It was amazing. I really enjoyed the work. I got to help all these different cats. We had 14 cats to do, only 3 were male. The cats all got rabies, distemper, eat tipped, and flea med. I learned ALOT. I also got to watch the neuter & spays, up close and personal! During 3 spays I held the oxygen mask. It was interesting to watch. I didn't mind the blood & guts at all. I have no idea how the vet does it though because everything looked the same too me! I have never seen a surgery before and it was way different then I imagined.

I am going to start volunteering at the shelter now too. I really liked it. Everyone was super nice. I felt really great too because the woman who invited me gave me some awesome compliments. She was very impressed with all the work I did. Said I should be a vet tech because I just got right in there and took to everything so natural.

It was weird because with my anxiety I really am not good at knowing what to do in unknown situations. But I did do really good. There were some awkward moments for me. A few times I had alittle bit of panic when I wasn't sure what to do. But I am more comfortable around animals and everyone was so relaxed it helped alot.

So I am super proud of myself for that. I was there from 7:30-3pm & then at the shelter until 4pm. As soon as I got home I had to walk down to tractor supply co to get cat food. Which sucked. It was so hot outside and carrying a huge bag of cat food home was work..counting that as a strength workout! lol

But after that I just crashed. I felt so sick, so tired, so sore, so dead. I got dizzy and fell once. Part of it was that I ate just a small bowl of oatmeal for breakfast and then the entire time I was gone I didn't drink or eat...uh yeah not smart. I just got too busy I didn't think of it.

Then to make things worse...instead of eating something healthy and good when I got home I decided to go across the street to the icecream shop (that yes is right smack across the street from my home) & get a chocolate milkshake. So dumb. Then I ate dinner late because I was just feeling god awful.

I need to be smarter and make better choices for sure. But it made my mood crash so hard. I was cranky & tired and whiny. It didn't help that the people I live with are slobs and I awoke to a huge mess....

Anyways I am exhausted and am going to go pass out because I am dead tired. Tomorrow will be better.