About Me

I am Aimee & this is my blog! I really love to blog but have never done it seriously before. It was just my little bit of sacred space for me to rant and write and attempt to untangle the mess of thoughts in my head. But I seriously enjoyed reading other blogs on fitness and diet and was so motivated to do it myself. Plus it really helps me stay on the right path I think.

I am in my early 30s a Virgo. I am originally from Colorado and miss it terribly. It is beautiful and active and just the best place ever! Currently I live in Western NY state with my darling husband, 4 kitties and a dog!

True Love ❤❤❤
My husband and I met online. Which actually doesn't seem that crazy these days but it sure did back then in 1999. It was not planned at all, never something I would have thought of. Plus I was not looking for love at 17. But we both played an online MMORPG called Asheron's Call (we no longer play that btw). We met because I was standing in town with pretty blue armor & he complimented it. We started talking and became instant friends. After a while all we were doing online was talking to each other about everything and anything. Then we began calling each other and talking every night. I joke that we talked more then most in person couples. We fell in love ♡ We moved in together in 2003, were married in 2006. We have had our ups and downs but we are soul mates and I can't imagine my life without him in it.

Pets...
I will probably be blogging about my pets alot lol I love animals! All of them! If I were rich I would just buy a huge chunk of land and just have far too many pets. Horses, goats, a llama, dogs & cats galore & cute fluffy things as well. Sadly I am not rich and live in an apartment so...no such luck. The ones I have already keep my hands full enough I suppose.

My cats are as follows: Kisa, Keeba, Kye, & Kit. Yes a K theme is going on. IDK why...I blame it on my DH. When I met my husband I had the most wonderful heart cat in the world Kami (RIP) and then when we got Kisa we had been watching a show on animal planet where it had a lynx named Kisa (which means kitty in russian). So then it just kept going...Keeba is from an anime show called Wolfs Rain. Kye & Kit were just that I couldn't think of any more damn K names I liked.


I also have my puppy. My darling little girl Trixie. She is named after a My Little Pony because that is how I roll. She was born 4/23/2013 & my gotcha date was mid June 2013. She is my all star hero in helping me be braver and get my butt out of the house!

My Healthy Journey....

I am a type 2 diabetic, I have PCOS & severe anxiety disorder...FUN!

At 26 years years old in Jan 2009 I fell ill and ended up in the ER in extreme pain. My blood sugar (BS) was over 300 & my A1C was 11. They told me I was diabetic. I found a doctor and was put on Metformin and Novolog 70/30 insulin. It was an overwhelming experience that made me really wake up and see how I was killing myself.

I was not active at all. My diet was also a huge mess. I wasn’t really big on junk food or sweets but I ate very unbalanced- skipping meals then binging. I also have a mad addiction to carbs. Ask for a list of my favorite foods and they will be filled with pastas and breads. I love carbs! I would joke that if I had a choice in snack I would choose a loaf of bread.

But I recognized my problems and wanted to change. Right away I took charge and did amazing. My doctor said I was a perfect patient. I ate right & exercised. By May I was off insulin & my A1C was 5.7. I was eating right and exercising. Lost more then 20lbs and felt great.

Then came the stumble and fall…

So much stuff happened that it is hard to keep track of it all. Going off insulin put a kink in my routine and it rippled out- I began forgetting to take pills, not sticking to my plans. Then I stopped eating right and exercising. I GAINED BACK EVERYTHING I HAD LOST AND THEN SOME.

I was very stressed and the ugly head of depression just swallowed me up. I am not even completely sure how it all happened. Excuses came easily and it seemed easier to curl up, cry and give up then to keep working.

Since then I have bounced around so many times. I will start to do great. I will summon all of the courage in the world, plan and plan, feel like I am doing everything right but end up just wobbling until I fall apart.





Anxiety...
Living with anxiety disorder is very difficult. There were times where I could not leave my apartment alone. Normal everyday things that no one thinks about gives me panic attacks. I would need to take out the trash and it is a very short stroll to the dumpster behind my building, in the middle of the day, and I would have to talk myself up to do it. I would be sitting in front of my door having a panic attack because I just could not step a foot outside. I have had it where someone knocked on my door and instead of answering it I ran into the bathroom sat on the floor and cried.

Those are bad days but most days are not that severe.  Most days I just feel that panic cringe throughout the day. It is very hard for me to go outside or in public places alone. Having my dog or husband helps alot. Most people just seem to think I am super shy but that isn't exactly the truth. I am just not comfortable. It can be really difficult. I can be in a room full of family, people I adore and love and like and act like I am sitting with strangers.

Bipolar...
On June 24 2014 I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder & Formally Anxiety disorder as well. I am starting medication..abilify & prozac.


Random Crazy stuff about me~

I love My Little Ponies. I own more then I care to admit. IDK why...the show is awesome and fun. The dolls just remind me of being a kid and all things super girly & fun.

My favorite foods- pizza, pizza, pizza, mac & cheese, a hamburger (but omg not a cheeseburger. Keep your icky cheese away from me...when it is on a hamburger or sandwich. lol My DH teases me like mad because I hate cheese on some things but then love it smothered on other stuff. I'm weird so sue me). Cheesecake & strawberry shortcake are my favorite sweets. I love strawberries alot! Peaches, melon, grapes, bananas. I love zucchini in everything & spinach too. I can put spinach in everything and be quite content. Broccoli and peppers. I used to hate veggies growing up but I grew up eating canned..yuck. I eat alot of frozen or fresh now and it makes such a huge difference.

I am a crazy picky eater. There is alot of things I will not try and it doesn't have to make sense I just do not want to. My food can not touch. Well some things can, I'm not that weird. But most things I want them apart. I can not eat fish. IDK it just seems icky to me & I don't really like how these fish are caught as well. Meat is difficult for me. I would go vegetarian and have in the past, but being picky I don't have a wealth of things to eat. So it was difficult and I do like meat. I do not think eating meat is wrong, I think how we treat the animals is wrong. I struggle with it alot. So I eat meat but just hate myself for it...


On a brighter note...my favorite colors are purple & pink. And even as a feminist who shouldn't equate pink=girl, it drives me crazy how many people ask if my dog is a boy when she has pink collar, harness and leash. Why does she look like a dude?? I don't think so.