Showing posts with label Blood Sugar. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Blood Sugar. Show all posts
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Another Positive Day
I am having another real positive day. Yesterday my FBS was 117. Which while not perfect is much better then it has been. And today my predinner BS was just 104! I actually felt alittle light headed as I am not so used to the lower numbers right now. But this is really good it means my numbers are coming down nicely and if I keep working at it like I am they should be where they need to be shortly. Yay me.
I went to therapy today and it went really well. It is nice to have someone impartial to talk to about it that agrees with me. It eases my concerns. We also talked about my issue with Christmas dinner. We go to my inlaws and everything they make for dinner is stuff I do not eat- ham, polish sausage, potato salad. I just don't like any of it. And it puts me in this awkward predicament which for someone with panic disorder is really sucky.
I don't want to expect them to make a whole other meal for me and yet my husband just wants me to wing it and find something to eat there. Like idk maybe he is embarrassed by his picky wife. But my therapist thinks I should just not even worry about it and bring a lasagna or something to eat that can be for everyone if they want it and Ill have something to eat. It sounds like a plan. I might do a baked ziti with roasted veggies. I saw a recipe that looked yummy. I can premake it all and put it together then just toss it in the oven to melt the cheese when I get there.
I didn't walk today :( I wanted to but it was snowing with some harsh wind and after I got out of therapy I just wasn't feeling up to walking. Hopefully the weather is a bit nicer tomorrow.
I didn't nap again today so that makes 5 days without taking a nap! But it was a real struggle not to. But I am realizing it seems to come with the boredom. I just need to find things to do.
I didn't do much today at all. I did clean out my fridge & freezer which badly needed it. I can't go shopping till prob fri or sat but when I do ill have plenty of room to fill up.
Anyways I am just happy and in a good mood :) My therapist even noticed and said I seem alot calmer and better. So maybe my new pills and upping the prozac is working!
Saturday, July 12, 2014
I just don't like raw carrots.
I have tried to appease my hummus addiction with sliced cucumber and carrots. The cucumbers were strange, not bad, but I am not sure if I liked it or not lol. I still ate it so eh. But no I do not like raw carrots and even dipping them in yummy hummus did not fool me into liking them. I like plenty of other veggies so I just need to stop forcing myself to try and like carrots. It isn't going to happen.
I went to the doctor yesterday. She upped my prozac by double so I am up from 20mg to 40mg. She also gave me propranolol to take as needed during a severe panic attack. She kept me on the same 2.5 of abilify. And said my blood sugar numbers were looking good and that we would talk more about diabetes stuff the next time I come in, in 2 months. I plan to be an all star by then :)
I think one thing that will really help me is a better meal plan. I find myself wasting food left and right because I buy alot and then don't have time to eat it all or end up eating something else. I need a plan that can be firm enough to have structure but with some wiggle room just incase something else comes up.
This is my idea for now. I wanna test my BS after each meal and play around if I need to.
Breakfast:
Eggs + veggies
Apple
maybe bread/toast?
1 day a week oatmeal IF after I test my BS it isn't crazy high after.
Lunch:
Salad
Dinner:
My "Big" meal of the day that changes each week. But ideally it would be 1-2 things that I can eat leftovers the other nights.
Ideas:
Fajitas which is my newest favorite thing I have learned to make
Pasta dishes with tons of veggies/little bit of pasta
chicken + veggies and/rice maybe
whatever my husband wants for dinner but smartly portioned and with veggies for me.
Ideally I would prefer lunch to be my big meal and stick with a salad for dinner. I think it would be wiser. But as I am alone for lunch but the DH is home for dinner. It would spell disaster as it tempts all my willpower to stick with a salad when he wants something yummy for dinner. I have to set myself up for success.
With this plan I will only need to be testing my BS around dinner to figure out what foods work and don't. I won't have to worry about breakfast or lunch ideas. It is simple and easy. Lower carb meals but not giving up carbs completely or even being all that low.
Hopefully this will all help budget wise and diet wise.
I went to the doctor yesterday. She upped my prozac by double so I am up from 20mg to 40mg. She also gave me propranolol to take as needed during a severe panic attack. She kept me on the same 2.5 of abilify. And said my blood sugar numbers were looking good and that we would talk more about diabetes stuff the next time I come in, in 2 months. I plan to be an all star by then :)
I think one thing that will really help me is a better meal plan. I find myself wasting food left and right because I buy alot and then don't have time to eat it all or end up eating something else. I need a plan that can be firm enough to have structure but with some wiggle room just incase something else comes up.
This is my idea for now. I wanna test my BS after each meal and play around if I need to.
Breakfast:
Eggs + veggies
Apple
maybe bread/toast?
1 day a week oatmeal IF after I test my BS it isn't crazy high after.
Lunch:
Salad
Dinner:
My "Big" meal of the day that changes each week. But ideally it would be 1-2 things that I can eat leftovers the other nights.
Ideas:
Fajitas which is my newest favorite thing I have learned to make
Pasta dishes with tons of veggies/little bit of pasta
chicken + veggies and/rice maybe
whatever my husband wants for dinner but smartly portioned and with veggies for me.
Ideally I would prefer lunch to be my big meal and stick with a salad for dinner. I think it would be wiser. But as I am alone for lunch but the DH is home for dinner. It would spell disaster as it tempts all my willpower to stick with a salad when he wants something yummy for dinner. I have to set myself up for success.
With this plan I will only need to be testing my BS around dinner to figure out what foods work and don't. I won't have to worry about breakfast or lunch ideas. It is simple and easy. Lower carb meals but not giving up carbs completely or even being all that low.
Hopefully this will all help budget wise and diet wise.
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Up to 2 Miles!
Yesterday I went to the therapist and it was a really good session. We talked about how I am not very assertive and how I need to be. How because I'm not I tend to let things bubble up & take over my mind as I obsesses over them. So something small becomes something huge because I am not facing it.
She explained that I have this backpack of rocks that I am carrying around. Each rock is a weight of something bad or uncomfortable that I am not letting go of or or not facing. And it is heavy and it takes me out of the moment. I can't focus on today if I am focused on all of this other crap that is so heavy and in my way.
And everytime I take care of an issue, that weight is lifted and I have more room to focus on my real issues and big problems. I also learn how to deal with issues so that it is easier and in the future I won't put the rock in my bag but just deal with it and move on.
So I have to work on being more assertive! She also wants me to find a way to volunteer at the cat shelter. She also told me I should see my doctor about upping my meds. I was planning on going today but forgot they are closed on Thursdays so tomorrow it is.
This morning I woke up at 4am again...fun! Idk why this keeps happening but it sucks. I wake up and can not go back to sleep for anything. Maybe I am drinking too much water before bed. I will try to cut back so close to bedtime and see if that keeps me asleep longer.
I went for a nice long walk today...2 miles! I decided to just push myself and up it. It went really well. I always start off so rough but as I go along my body adjusts and I am not so anxious, then it is easier.
My FBS was 128 this morning. Yesterday after lunch/before dinner it was the lowest yet at 118. I am feeling quite positive about it all.
She explained that I have this backpack of rocks that I am carrying around. Each rock is a weight of something bad or uncomfortable that I am not letting go of or or not facing. And it is heavy and it takes me out of the moment. I can't focus on today if I am focused on all of this other crap that is so heavy and in my way.
And everytime I take care of an issue, that weight is lifted and I have more room to focus on my real issues and big problems. I also learn how to deal with issues so that it is easier and in the future I won't put the rock in my bag but just deal with it and move on.
So I have to work on being more assertive! She also wants me to find a way to volunteer at the cat shelter. She also told me I should see my doctor about upping my meds. I was planning on going today but forgot they are closed on Thursdays so tomorrow it is.
This morning I woke up at 4am again...fun! Idk why this keeps happening but it sucks. I wake up and can not go back to sleep for anything. Maybe I am drinking too much water before bed. I will try to cut back so close to bedtime and see if that keeps me asleep longer.
I went for a nice long walk today...2 miles! I decided to just push myself and up it. It went really well. I always start off so rough but as I go along my body adjusts and I am not so anxious, then it is easier.
My FBS was 128 this morning. Yesterday after lunch/before dinner it was the lowest yet at 118. I am feeling quite positive about it all.
Sunday, July 6, 2014
My dog was attacked :(
My dog was attacked today by another dog :(
Today I was taking our morning walk and I had decided to up our distance and go farther then we usually go. We have been walking one mile I wanted to up it to 1.5. From where I live there is really only one direction to walk and we go straight down the road, turn around and go home.
Well we were walking along and a woman turned down behind us with a big dog. Idk what it was it looked like a yellow lab mixed with a bear it was huge. We were about a half a block ahead of them, no worries.
Then we got to the end of where I wanted to walk. I was exhausted by then and didn't want to keep going so I turned around and realized they were behind us so it was kindof awkward. I didn't think much of it, I've seen other dogs before. I pulled Trixie & myself to the very edge of the curb and waited for them to pass, leaving plenty of space. I smiled at her and apologized as her dog was pulling towards us. But he didn't seem aggressive to me just interested. I still kept us away.
But the woman wasn't very big and he pulls free from her and just jumps on Trixie. It happened so fast. He was just nipping at her butt. He didn't break the skin. But it was nothing but lunge and bite bite bite. She yelped and tried jumping/running.
She got her dog and I grabbed Trixie away and picked her up to check if she was ok. She was fine, no skin was broken.
The woman just said sorry and left. She didn't even stop to see if my dog was ok.
As soon as I saw Trixie was ok I lost it. I had to sit down on the ground crying, shaking, I couldn't breathe. Panic attack! So not the best reaction. Trixie went right into comfort mode, the angel lol.
She is so so tiny and it could have been so bad. I am just a wreck. I am scared if it mentally hurt her worse then it did physically. We still had to walk all the way home and for the entire way until we were back on our normal route she kept being jumpy and checking behind her.
I know I didn't handle it right. I did make her walk home though I so wanted to carry her and just protect her in my bubble of love. And I kept talking happy and telling her she was a good girl. I didn't want the experience to scar her so that she would be afraid of dogs.
I never thought about what I would do if she was attacked, that was never supposed to happen. I feel horrible about it. I should have pulled down the side street and backtracked instead of just walking to the side. And its all my fault we were down there to begin with, I should have stuck to our normal route and it wouldn't have happened.
She seems fine right now, like nothing happened.
A really strange part was that this morning when I started walking I so didn't feel like it. My legs were sore before I started. Every step I had to push myself forward. I kept saying oh I will turn around and cut it short but then I kept walking. The only reason I kept on was that it was pretty dead outside being Sunday morning & I didn't want to pass up that chance.
Also my BS numbers suck. My FBS was 145 & then three hours after breakfast + the walk I was up to 168. My breakfast only had 38 carbs. I had alot of anxiety but still, three hours & the walk I would imagine it wouldn't be so high.
I hope the rest of the day gets better. I am busy cleaning cleaning cleaning.
Today I was taking our morning walk and I had decided to up our distance and go farther then we usually go. We have been walking one mile I wanted to up it to 1.5. From where I live there is really only one direction to walk and we go straight down the road, turn around and go home.
Well we were walking along and a woman turned down behind us with a big dog. Idk what it was it looked like a yellow lab mixed with a bear it was huge. We were about a half a block ahead of them, no worries.
Then we got to the end of where I wanted to walk. I was exhausted by then and didn't want to keep going so I turned around and realized they were behind us so it was kindof awkward. I didn't think much of it, I've seen other dogs before. I pulled Trixie & myself to the very edge of the curb and waited for them to pass, leaving plenty of space. I smiled at her and apologized as her dog was pulling towards us. But he didn't seem aggressive to me just interested. I still kept us away.
But the woman wasn't very big and he pulls free from her and just jumps on Trixie. It happened so fast. He was just nipping at her butt. He didn't break the skin. But it was nothing but lunge and bite bite bite. She yelped and tried jumping/running.
She got her dog and I grabbed Trixie away and picked her up to check if she was ok. She was fine, no skin was broken.
The woman just said sorry and left. She didn't even stop to see if my dog was ok.
As soon as I saw Trixie was ok I lost it. I had to sit down on the ground crying, shaking, I couldn't breathe. Panic attack! So not the best reaction. Trixie went right into comfort mode, the angel lol.
She is so so tiny and it could have been so bad. I am just a wreck. I am scared if it mentally hurt her worse then it did physically. We still had to walk all the way home and for the entire way until we were back on our normal route she kept being jumpy and checking behind her.
I know I didn't handle it right. I did make her walk home though I so wanted to carry her and just protect her in my bubble of love. And I kept talking happy and telling her she was a good girl. I didn't want the experience to scar her so that she would be afraid of dogs.
I never thought about what I would do if she was attacked, that was never supposed to happen. I feel horrible about it. I should have pulled down the side street and backtracked instead of just walking to the side. And its all my fault we were down there to begin with, I should have stuck to our normal route and it wouldn't have happened.
She seems fine right now, like nothing happened.
A really strange part was that this morning when I started walking I so didn't feel like it. My legs were sore before I started. Every step I had to push myself forward. I kept saying oh I will turn around and cut it short but then I kept walking. The only reason I kept on was that it was pretty dead outside being Sunday morning & I didn't want to pass up that chance.
Also my BS numbers suck. My FBS was 145 & then three hours after breakfast + the walk I was up to 168. My breakfast only had 38 carbs. I had alot of anxiety but still, three hours & the walk I would imagine it wouldn't be so high.
I hope the rest of the day gets better. I am busy cleaning cleaning cleaning.
Monday, June 30, 2014
So much is going on....
I have started tracking my food again. It is difficult still and can be overwhelming but I think it is worth it to see my blood sugar and how I gain or lose. So yay me.
Food wise I am not doing perfect. But I am getting better and that is what matters. Last night I made hamburgers for dinner and macaroni and cheese. I should have had a salad or veggies with it but I didn't :( But on the positive I would have usually eaten two hamburgers and I only ate one. I even only cooked one for myself. I was very proud of that.I am also eating fruit too. An apple or two everyday & I have grapes, watermelon and a melon to cut up.
I am also drinking more water yay! I filled up my brita water bottle and it helped alot. IDK why I drink more from a water bottle lol I am so weird. I need to get a second one so I can have one in the fridge cold and one drinking.
This morning my FBS was 161, higher then yesterday. I did have a bit of a big dinner and then foolishly drank sweet tea right before bed so that may have affected it.
My stomach was much better yesterday, not perfect but I wasn't just in ugh all day. Still some bathroom issues. TMI lol. But this morning I made a huge mistake of having a glass of cranberry juice and it wrecked me hard. IDK if it was because of the milk from my cereal or from the medicine, or some combination of all of it. But no no no. :(
Last night I slept well but falling asleep did not work out as planned. I had a very hard time sleeping. I felt something on my arm like a bug bite even though there was no mark.. and then I could not stop thinking about bugs crawling on me. So I kept "feeling" bugs and itching like crazy. I got up twice turned on the light, shook out my sheets. There was no bugs. I was just going crazy. Sigh.
I have my first therapy session Wednesday! eek I am so scared. The process of finding a therapist was incredibly difficult for one. But I finally found one and she just got in touch with me so yay. And her office is super close to where I live so I can walk there. I am so nervous omg.
Food wise I am not doing perfect. But I am getting better and that is what matters. Last night I made hamburgers for dinner and macaroni and cheese. I should have had a salad or veggies with it but I didn't :( But on the positive I would have usually eaten two hamburgers and I only ate one. I even only cooked one for myself. I was very proud of that.I am also eating fruit too. An apple or two everyday & I have grapes, watermelon and a melon to cut up.
I am also drinking more water yay! I filled up my brita water bottle and it helped alot. IDK why I drink more from a water bottle lol I am so weird. I need to get a second one so I can have one in the fridge cold and one drinking.
This morning my FBS was 161, higher then yesterday. I did have a bit of a big dinner and then foolishly drank sweet tea right before bed so that may have affected it.
My stomach was much better yesterday, not perfect but I wasn't just in ugh all day. Still some bathroom issues. TMI lol. But this morning I made a huge mistake of having a glass of cranberry juice and it wrecked me hard. IDK if it was because of the milk from my cereal or from the medicine, or some combination of all of it. But no no no. :(
Last night I slept well but falling asleep did not work out as planned. I had a very hard time sleeping. I felt something on my arm like a bug bite even though there was no mark.. and then I could not stop thinking about bugs crawling on me. So I kept "feeling" bugs and itching like crazy. I got up twice turned on the light, shook out my sheets. There was no bugs. I was just going crazy. Sigh.
I have my first therapy session Wednesday! eek I am so scared. The process of finding a therapist was incredibly difficult for one. But I finally found one and she just got in touch with me so yay. And her office is super close to where I live so I can walk there. I am so nervous omg.
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Weigh in! & Not drinking enough water
So good news I am down 1.6lbs this week yay me! By September I am hoping to be under 200lbs...ONEderland here I come! By my birthday (9-22) maybe...180? I can hope :)
Also my BS was quite a bit lower this morning at 152. Which is still high but compared to 270-214 it is a blessing lol. I am going to start testing at night this week, right before bed and see how it is changing while I sleep. Also this morning I tested as soon as I woke up instead of doing all my bathroom readiness, taking the dog out and feeding the cats first. I think this was alot better.
On the to be worked on side... I need to start drinking more. I gave up soda and now I am just not drinking anywhere near enough liquid. I have some tea and water. For example today I woke up at 6:30 am it is now 5pm & I have had like a cup & a half of stuff to drink. Thats it. perhaps that is why I am feeling bad.
I will fill up my water bottle tomorrow maybe that will help....
Also my BS was quite a bit lower this morning at 152. Which is still high but compared to 270-214 it is a blessing lol. I am going to start testing at night this week, right before bed and see how it is changing while I sleep. Also this morning I tested as soon as I woke up instead of doing all my bathroom readiness, taking the dog out and feeding the cats first. I think this was alot better.
On the to be worked on side... I need to start drinking more. I gave up soda and now I am just not drinking anywhere near enough liquid. I have some tea and water. For example today I woke up at 6:30 am it is now 5pm & I have had like a cup & a half of stuff to drink. Thats it. perhaps that is why I am feeling bad.
I will fill up my water bottle tomorrow maybe that will help....
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